| | Last Weekend...
...God decided to give me a break. It had been raining the whole week before but come Saturday, the sun was out and so was I. Out of town, that is. Went to Subic, watched Eartha swim with dolphins, hung out at Anvaya with Vren and played tong-its with PJ. Sunday was so much better. Woke up early and headed straight to the beach. While they were all watching the live Pacquiao fight, I decided to stay by myself by the pool for some "me" time. And boy did I soooo need that.
Come Monday, it was raining again. I think He knew I really needed a break. Even for just a while.
Now
Sometimes I wonder how he even came into my life. I'd like to think I wasn't attracted to him even just a little bit the first time I saw him. I was. But -- I knew it would never be. So, on life went.
Today, things are different.
Do I really wish I'd never gotten myself into this? There are days I just throw my hands up in the air and say, "Whatever. I'll charge this to experience." But other days, I stress over it and obsess and get those uncomfortable knots in my stomach. Today is one of those days. Damn it.
I'm scared that what I want to happen will happen. The culmination of all this. I tell myself that when that happens, that would the be end of it. But is that really true? If it is then why am I so scared?
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