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| I'm tired.
And I think everyone else around me is tired.
So that leaves you, my Xanga. But that's okay. Because I know you'll listen.
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I found out something today.
I felt my stomach turn into knots... and my heart deflate.
Who was I kidding telling myself I was doing a good job moving on?
But then again, it all boils down to hating myself.
I hate that I still think about this. I hate that it still has this effect on me. I hate that I can't make myself believe that I did the right thing and that I'm better off this way. I know it. I know it! Why the heck won't I believe it?!
I hate him, yes. But whatever he does, it's to be expected of him. I know the kind of person that he is and nothing he does should surprise me now. It's as if hatred towards him is a given. It's deserved.
But this, what I'm feeling now... I really shouldn't feel this way! I shouldn't care anymore! I'm fucking better than this!
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I'm tired.
I'm sad.
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Someone told me recently: Time heals all wounds.
Can someone please inject a massive dose of Vitamin B12 in the Big Ben of life? Now. Please.
My horoscope today says:
"Where's the fun in love if you don't let yourself make a few mistakes? If you don't make mistakes, you'll never learn. And if you don't learn, you'll never figure out what it is you really need from a relationship."
It sucks that that's right.
It just occurred to me that none of my dreams have come true yet. It makes me wonder what I've been doing all this time.
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| Easy
- Neyo
Oooh ....yeah
I kept the flowers, the candy, the letter that you wrote to me
and I laughed a long time
as it all went up in smokes
It was funny
[bridge]
See I don't care
No I don't care
'Cause you don't care
So I don't care anymore
[chorus]
It was easy
Easy to love me
But you didn't even want to try
So it was easy
Easy to leave you
Goodbye
Goodbye
Goodbye
I got all your messages on my phone
And the texts as well
I will be changing my number tomorrow
And my email
[bridge]
Because I don't care ( Don't matter what you try to say )
No I don't care ( Don't you realise it's too late )
'Cause you didn't care a thing
So why should I care now
See ya around
[chorus]
It was easy
Easy to love me
But you didn't even want to try ( Didn't even want to try )
So it was easy ( Easy )
Easy to leave you ( Leave you )
Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye
Said I remember
How much I cried (mmm..)
Inside a part of me died
Oh... Unfortunately for you
It was the part of me that gave a damn about your lie
Shoulda been easy ...Ooh..
Easy to love me .. Oh...
Oh.. Should've been easy
[chorus]
It was easy
Easy to love me ( To love me )
But you didn't even want to try ( You didn't even want to try )
So it was eeasssss-sy ( Easy )
Easy to leave you ( To leave you )
Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye
Should've been easy
Should've been easy
Should've been easy
Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye
Should've been easy
Should've been easy
Should've been easy
Goodbye
Goodbye
.....Goodbye.....
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| Can a wolf in sheep's clothing really turn into sheep if they wish for it to happen?
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| Hey, Player... Yeah, you...
First, I'd like to admit that, yes, you got me. Hook, line and sinker. You reeled me in and, as much as I hate to say it, I let you.
But hey, what can I do? You played your cards right. And although I'd like to think I had my game face on, you called my bluff. I enjoyed the game. I really did. Losing never felt better.
But I'm not folding that easily. Because you won't win forever. At some point, when you're all in, you're gonna lose too. And I'll feel bad for you. (How silly is that? Feeling anything but anger for you even 'til the last minute?) But you really just can't win 'em all, now can you?
For now, I'm still in. I'm too far in to stop now. So deal the cards and let's keep playing.
Just know this: I've got you figured out, asswipe.
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